Thursday, February 10, 2011

10. Day


10 – Your dream wedding.


I never was much into the wedding thing ...
and I never was one of the girls who exactly knew how they wanna marry ...
cause I never thought of myself as a futur wife ...
I think my problem is, that I cant trust anyone so much,
that I can consider to marry him.
Some people dont make a big deal out of marrying ...
something like 
"why should I worry if its not the right thing I can still divorce and maybe marry another time"

and I think it is a big deal!!!
If I marry someday I will be 100 % sure 
that this is the right guy and thing for me ...
and that I will never love someone as much as I may love him.

And that didnt happen till now ...

And I think another problem is,
that I am afriad ...
I am afraid to trust someone soo much
and deeply love him ...
that I would marry him ...

I think its part of my nature, that I will always doubt something and someone ...
I am almost 21 years old ...
and dont think I am a woman now, and a girl neither ...
but If I may someday be in this situation,
when I really think I am mature enough for such a big decision
and when I found the right guy, 
the one I really love from deep of my heart
I maybe want a dress that looks like one of those or something in this direction


The only thing I know is that I want compose my wedding cake ...
and it should look like this in some way ...


and that I dont want roses ...
I want lilies


And it should have some polish traditions ;)
But who knew ...
maybe I will marry someday ...
but I really doubt it!
_________________


jeez today was a horrbile day ...
everthing went wrong ...

but tomorrow is another day ...
lets what it will bring ...

but thats for now ...
chilaxing and going for a run later ;)

Hope you all have/had a great day!

X,
Nicky

3 comments:

  1. I can't wait to I get married! lol I know every girls dream right!

    Marcy,
    smudgemyeyeliner.com

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  2. Richtig Traumhaft *O*
    Toller Geschmack ♥

    http://lovelikeafeather.blogspot.com

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